Mary and Martha

The past week has been insanely uphill-downhill for me. So many issues have cropped up such that they've become obstacles in my life. And I'm mentally and emotionally spent from trying to do everything right. Not to mention thoroughly exhausted in my physical body too! But that's the least important aspect of all my exhaustion, I feel.

I've been so caught up with my own human problems and how I can solve them that I forgot that Jesus can solve them all for me, if only I'd let Him! Like Mary and Martha in the bible. I'm Martha, so busy with my human chores and work. I need to learn to be like Mary, to sit quietly at the feet of Jesus with an open and still heart, to listen to what He has to say and not worry about anything else.

So this morning, when I got up at 6.45am, I lay in bed in the dark for about 10 minutes in total silence. Not thinking about anything, not worrying about the day ahead. I was trying to listen out for Jesus's voice in my heart. And He DID touch me! I felt a sense of such immense peace as I lay there with the comforter pulled up to my chin. And the peace was so overwhelming that I knew it must have been from Him.

For He said, I will give you peace, a peace that the world cannot give.

And when I finally sat up and decided to start getting ready for work, I tried to pull back my momentarily discarded thoughts to myself. And what made me so sure that the wonderful peaceful feeling I felt earlier on was from Him was when my previously heavy and overburdening thoughts felt so weightless in my mind, so unimportant, so tiny compared to the mental anguish Jesus underwent that night in the Garden of Gethsemene. I truly praise the Lord for the wonderful blessing of peace he gave me! The Lord is good indeed. He will definitely help us, if only we would let Him. And if only we could all be Marys, sitting so obediently at His feet without letting the cares of the world touch her.

It's back to work for me. Lunch hour's over!


*kel